"i'm not calling you a ghost..."

"...just stop haunting me..."

...but is travelling in the correct direction

ch-ch-ch-changes

so it begins and ends, all at the same time.  i am now a non-smoker...

yet another pneumonia scare.  thrice in less than two years therefore enough is enough.  

this has really rattled me to my core.  not necessarily the thought of the little buggers living in my lungs yet again, but they are absent.  sick thought process right?  well in my warped mind, having pneumonia means/meant i will get better; prescribe me with the accustomed pharmacy, my lungs will stop hurting and i will continue to pollute them.  not the case on this current merry-go-round.  

"mild airways disease"

this was on my X-ray result.  after questioning my doctor whether this is a condition which will get better, or something i will live with and will retrogress; i heard, really heard her response, and became worried.  quite shaken actually.  not necessarily the response, which is below.  good news it says.  it was the attachment, a pdf file of pulmonologist referrals.

"I have reviewed your results and have found:
Your chest x ray showed mild thickening at the smaller bronchioles thatlead to your lungs, but this is unchanged from your prior chest x ray inOctober. There was no pneumonia or any other acute (new) changes."


really?!?  i.am.37.

"rolling in the deep"

talisman

how could i not be great? the more i hear what has been happening, the better off i am without her, i truly realise.

i need the above talisman, permanently inked on my skin. a lasting reminder...

"you hit me once, i hit you back..."

transition.takes.time.

upon flipping back through my self-imposed under-appreciated blog, i saw the above from a previous entry. seeing that hit me square in the face. it fits my life, and i must remember it daily. apparently, the last one to be "kicked to my life curb" is currently in transition. good on her. she's taking the steps, slowly but hopefully quite surely.

realisation of bridges on fire can truly be a life altering drug.

burbing it

funny how one can live in the largest city of her state and not come across a 24 hour coffee house, but can in the burbs. that's where I am at this late-ish hour. is there something wrong with the universe...

originally penned 1.3.12

succinct

~Mark Flood