it finally happened. yesterday. i knew it was coming and it did with a vengeance.
after a psychotic break i always have the feeling of not necessarily euphoria, but bliss, release or complete submission. there is one thing i have found which gives my psyche this release. unfortunately i cannot obtain this whenever i so very much need it. maybe when my brain shuts down, does the break, it knows what to look forward to; that blissful feeling, the submission, the letting go. is this why it happens? why i cannot contain my emotions? why i allow them to build up to this point?
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